Can't Wait Till Next Month

I've come to the final conclusion that 'BJ' is indeed a cultural preference.  (Or could it be that I didn't have such a good experience with it in the first place so I kinda... don't like doing it?)

Anyway, as May is almost over so I've been working on our June trip.  I really really wanna escape the heat in Bangkok to the cool windy area in New Zealand.  My only concern is I don't know if two-week-annual leave is too much ?!  Any ideas ??  I've read from the internet long time ago that British  love to take days off. Since I'm working for British company, is it possible that they don't mind this two-weeks-annual leave of mine??!!

Oh and the other day, SN told me that he bought this Sony Alpha A300 for my upcoming birthday.  How cool is that !!  Let go the compact camera and start with DSLR. Hooray :-)

It's All About 'BJ'

I know that relationship is all about give and take, but would it make me selfish that I only take???  And in this case... it's about BJ / oral sex / licking whatever you wanna call.

For ages, I have this weird + traditional believe that I would ONLY give a BJ to my 'husband' not 'boyfriend'.  I just don't wanna randomly suck every single cock I've been dating you know.  Anyway, this has never become an issue between me and SN until tonight, when he mentioned "It's nice to give and take once in while you know."  Oh oooo.... I felt like I shouldn't have brought this up.  I mean we talked about this and I thought he perfectly understands and respects that (strange) idea of mine.  Then he went, "It's ok. I don't mind.  I'll just eat you every now and then.  I know you really like it."

Y'all feel the same way as me?? It's like SN tries to make it fair - which is obviously not fair as he knows how much I love oral sex - it's like if I give him BJ now and then, he'll give me oral every now and then.  

Suddenly the dark side of me said "I knew it! I knew it!"  Guys just can't licking girls without expecting to be licked in return !!! 

Maybe I'm not Western enough.  Every typical Western girls would not mind giving BJ to their boyfriends. Right ??  But it's not my problem, my international environment that I've been living in, doesn't set any rules indicating BJ and sex are the same thing that you must participate with your partners.

And now... just because I wouldn't give him BJ (until we get married), I won't be receiving any BJ - as often as it always was - from him.

Or, maybe the same rules applied here.... like kissing for instance... if a guy kisses you but you don't kiss a guy back, then eventually he'll stop kissing you.

P.S.  FYI people.... I did it once and it lasted only 12 sec... sucking that thing... his thing was big and long (longer than my ex anyway), I felt like it couldn't fit my mouth !! I was almost choked.